There's this girl that I like and well she keeps talking to me about some other guy and when
I ask her about us, she blows me off. What the hell am I supposed to think? What am I
supposed to do? I am nothing in this non-relationship but a pawn to feed off the emotions
that are not mine. And maybe that's fine for her but it's not for me. What the hell am I doing
still thinking about her, and wanting to be with her, to hold her, to love her? Why should
I still care? Why should I be trying to put forth effort in this shit? Why do I have to be
the only one that seems to want a relationship? And why can't I force myself to not like her?
Why do I still like her? Why can't there be anyone out there that would give me the fucking
time of day in the street? Why do I avert my eyes from girls that like me? Why don't I just
ask them out? Apparently I should because shit is coming from this and I don't know how much
more I can take. I don't know what will be it, and I don't know what will happen when that
comes. And maybe she does this to make me jealous, but fuck that, I don't need to feel jealous.