I'm pretty
miserable living on
campus. I have no time, but never do anything. I waste away my days in classes, or sitting around doing work, reading
books that have no meaning to me and my life. I've
contemplated moving away, but the truth is that I don't want to leave
Asheville where I live. I love this town, I love this area, I love the people and the mountains.
I just hate this
campus and the
people on it.
I could move, I could just go away, but I have no money, and little experience for such an expedition. I also have no car, which makes leaving
town kind of difficult. I miss my friends, who are all either away at whatever college they decided on or still trapped in
high school.
I feel so
unbalanced here, like nothing is going on here, there's so much
activity, but so little matters here.
Whenever people aren't doing work, they just drink
beer, or
smoke, or sit around. Noone ever does anything
signifigant, or interesting. I'm stuck in this
cycle.
I've considered going to the counseling
office here, just because I've paid a whole shit-load of
money to be here, I might as well get some
free counseling while I'm at it, but I don't really want to share my
misery, or
spread it (but that didn't stop me from writing this).
Sorry for leaving a downer
daylog.