my head is lost in a twister of uncertainties - things, people, situations, places - that feel good, that unnerve me, that i know will leave me raving and happy and giggling in the end. but now, right now i'm shaking. probably not too far from tears. no energy to burn. i just want to collapse. most of me feels amazing, excited...the rest of me is just not here.

she touched me last night, sparks in her fingertips, in her hair, in her words. i melted, my guard still up. i still can't let go. i still can't let go. she fits me, but i don't know how, i don't know how...but she's electric, electric fire...

i have no answers (for a change). the only thing i know is that i have needs that need to be taken care of. and like you, kitty cat, when you paid me a visit last..those thoughts are starting to consume me and i can't analyze much else. i understand that now, i understand that...

to be continued...