Took a trip to the states this weekend, to clear my head.
It was good to get out of the city.
Watching the world go by in a car window, meeting new people, being able to spend a few days without worrying about
job,
house,
money, or
girl stresses was good. Very good.
I'm thinking about moving to
Kitchener for a while, to take some time to chill out.
Jessica and I aren't together anymore, and I don't want to live in
Toronto if I'm not living with
her. She's the reason I came here, and I don't want to stay here, alone. Maybe come
September,
October, I might move back, but for now...
I need to figure out who I am, really. I'd like to go there for a while, get my own place (my own place!), and just work for a bit, try and remember what it is that I like to do.
Geek out a bit,
DJ a bit,
read a bit. Keep to myself for a bit.
It might be good for me. I'm not sure.
...
The hardest part about this breakup is the fact that I would still drop everything for her, in a
heartbeat. Even with the problems we've had, I'd do it all again for her, in a moment, if she asked.
The hard bit is that
she won't. She doesn't want this relationship.