I've re-entered the node world in at least twice as pathetic as last time...

I've floated around different nodes for what seems at least four or five decades completely uninspired. Everything from lame gtky bull shit, to deep intelectual ideas to random sex nodes to try to stimulate some kind of cognative anything. how the fuck do you deal with such intolerable lack of conscious what not. where do i go to ease the lameness that seems to eminate from me lately? Is this the life i'm condemed to for the whole fucking day? oh god, that's waaay to long.