If you were to look into my
eyes
What would you
see?
Would it be the
faint trace of
sparkle still
untouched
That characterized the
potential of
youth
But has since vanished
And been replaced by growing clouds of
self-doubt
And
selfishness and
worry
Would you see the glimmer of idealism that I once had?
The sense that being happy is natural
And not a major daily struggle
For emotional survival
Or do you instead see the fear?
Of being alone...again
And of false hope
Do you see me looking over my shoulder, shuddering?
My personal demons hunting me
And haunting me
I’m so tired of running
Would you see the tears in the corners?
The agony I now feel
And the pain of failure
It all seemed so easy once
For me
And for us
What’s happened? And what’s happening?
Why are these bitter tears streaming from my eyes?
And down my once soft and gentle cheeks
Now made jagged and uninviting
Would you see the desperation I feel?
Of fighting to get back what I once had
What we once had together
I don’t understand myself anymore
And I’m so weak, so drained
I need the ring bell to sound
To save me, and rescue me from myself
From what I’m becoming
You might know me
But I don’t think you know what I feel
I need you to salvage my soul
And make my body warm again
To bring peace to the internal frenzy
I need you to stare at me
All of me
And help me put things right
But, just tell me now
If you were to look into my eyes
What would you see?
My first noded poem.../msg'ed feedback is welcome.