Its even worse when you know you should
hurt and you don't.
It
haunts you for years. You have
nightmares riddled with guilt. You start noticing a pattern within that all things which should be
shattering simply have no effect.
I'm not sure if its a
self-defense mechanism my
psyche kicks in periodically, or if its a switch I turn on and off myself, but sometimes, when I should feel
everything painted with a blue
sorrow, I feel nothing at all.