the emptiness of your departure was sudden and complete.
i curled alone at night,
leaving your side of the bed untouched
in case you left a ghost
i was haunted
remembering those times happiness shimmered in my eyes--
hands running under sheets, breath mingling &
the slowsweetslide of you within me--
and the way you pulled me close after,
using your arms and lips to make up for
the emptiness of pulling
& how i made you tense across the room as i
across a desk, and smiled
in red stiletto ankle boots, freshly showered, towel drop-
my hands did nothing to replace yours.