hold up this tired skyline with all i falter for

once-crisp shirts forlornly piled

selves-satisfied smiles

thighs a-trembled and wet lips--
eager.



once-steady hands carelessly grasping

crooked limbs tumbling into shapes

& your dips and spikes outlined under sheet--
lover, loved.



(and when night shivers softly within the concrete canopy, i cease listening to the beeps&hums and

pause.



breathe with me.)

---

For bewilderbeast, for finding a random post-it a number of years ago, and being thoughtful enough to pass it along.

These hills
were not meant to hold me. Not
me with my pale skin or
me with my curving hips, not
me too round for burning spoons
exploding sheds
miles and miles of sagebrush land.

These hills
were not meant for humans. They
scrape restlessly at the leaden sky,
scrape tiredly with winds to heaven
scrape me dry in each arroyo
each dryplot land.

These hills
are echoing with drunken coyote howls
searching restless for a hit of corpse or crystal
searching hungry for the hearts of hollow
searching low-slunk belly dust-dragged
the sagebrush receding
in this rear-view land.

Hold your breath as I
inhale your
perfumed shoulders, pull open tentative buttons,
trace your ribcage

Grasp the stair rail
as we embrace, as your eyes
widen, as your lips part
as your hips
descend

Hold up this late afternoon skyline,
exhausted, but satisfied,
for another night
or a few hundred.