Here's the stuff we found when you searched for "Yes self-defense, but boy did I have a huge part - in goading him, in not just walking out instead of fighting, in not calling in help from the other people in the house, in generally hitting him back or throwing things back instead of setting boundaries, in STAYING IN THE FUCKING RELATIONSHIP - I stayed in it after that fight, too. I literally stayed in it until I reached the point where I wanted to kill him, and then decided I'd better gracefully exit."

• Let him hold out hope that someone or other might come. Then fuckin' kill him.
• Put That Thing Back Where it Came From or So Help Me
• I did not tell him, instead I kept it private like a secret hug
• Don't kill your invisible husband to see what he looks like or you'll sob your heart out. But don't worry about the millions of invisible men coming to attack your village because they won't kill you if you don't know how to fight them.
• Stand back from the doors or they might kill you
• I keep thinking I'm so tough but I rarely care enough to prove it. So am I really tough then? Or does every dog just have its day?
• How Could You Want Him (When You Know You Could Have Me)?
• Some days are magic, and I can do anything. The other days, I just have to wait, and hope it comes back.
• I'd love to stay and let you break my heart, but I have laundry to do
• It's not so much that I like him as a person God, but as a boy he's very handsome
• We'd kill him, but it probably wouldn't solve anything
• I didn't have the heart to tell him I was lying about taco night, but at least the hellhound made some friends
• Of course, first you have to kill him
• Strange man makes permanent visit
• Do you not see that if we kill him with the pill from the till by making with it the drug in the jug, you need not light the candle with the handle on the gateau from the chateau!
• Zip him back up, he sucks.
• I'll pretend I just cursed myself by saying this, so when it doesn't happen I have something to fall back on other than you
• If you meet the Buddha on the road, ask him how far it is to the next gas station. *Then* kill him.
• i always want to go back. but i don't know if it's time yet. i have some things i have to do.
• the magic that was meant to capture the outlaw instead transformed him into a monster
• She quietly hugged him back. At 8:30 she ate the rest of him.
• I'd tell you but then I'd have to kill you
• Slide, thud, whoosh, crunch, or: Catholic Rally Stage 1 Fights Back
• Cemeteries are boring, but I can't seem to stay away from this one in particular.
• The Pilgrim's Progress: Part I: The sights there shown him
• I will make him promises, but not ones I am afraid to break
• the stars were falling just for him
• I can't decide if what you're saying is too profound for me to comprehend or just insane
• he can find a cure for us, if we help him
• The Pilgrim's Progress: Part I: Evangelist directs him
• From stars just out of reach
• one thing just tears him down
• a poem for a boy before I met him
• And we killed him and he's dead.
• Of course they want to come here. Who doesn't? Besides the people from Los Angeles, but we don't speak of them.
• then I hugged him
• Praise the Lord! Ye Heavens, Adore Him
• I want to reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back
• She won't kiss him until she marries him
• kill him dead; don't call me
• Please, for the love of everything that is holy on this Earth. I just want the cold back.
• What if I saw him in three years, in another city: better?
• God exists and I have him trapped in a box in my basement
• Seeking the recluse but not finding him
• My finger can point to the moon, but my finger is not the moon. You don't have to become my finger, nor do you have to worship my finger. You have to forget my finger, and look at where it is pointing.
• You Should Never Have Asked Him About His Job!
• It was a reasonable chat, I let him have it alone
• If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him
• How Candide Escaped from the Bulgarians and What Befell Him Afterward
• What's Hecuba to him, or he to Hecuba, that he should weep for her?
• Is she really going out with him?
• him will I blot out of my book
• I saw him lying there leaving me, and I did not know
• Just because a man is nice to pretty girls, it doesn't make him a nice man
• Martyrdom, or why mowing a Dandelion is the best thing you can do for him
• his whole life, like a thundercloud, out in front of him
• If God did not exist, it would be necessary to invent him
• Any man can handle adversity. If you want to test his character, give him power.
• the flecks of smoke and sparks don't conjure you back from the ground or heaven
• You beat it in me, that part of you/But I'm gonna split us back in two
• The good guys and the bad guys were on the back of the boat and I swear I only turned my back for a MINUTE but when I came back, they'd killed Mozart.
• I shot a man in Reno just to watch him die
• Little boy every man has hiding inside of him
• He was there, and then he wasn't, and with him went those memories
• i Kill Strangers, Stay Away From Me
• We enjoy a quiet but satisfying yuletide until people from the social services come to release us
• Seems I might have stolen the blue part of her rainbow, but all I really did was make it bigger, a way bigger blue
• you have changed but the memory stayed the same
• Someone has writer's block but I don't know if I'm him right now
• Listen to me, because I am in the soapbox. This is the voice of the soapbox. I am calling to you. Do you hear the sounds of my soaply siren song? My syntactically sweet strumming along to sequential sequestrations of symmetrically snakey st
• The annoying kid told me to kick him so I did
• That man has writer's block but I don't know if I'm him right now
• I love you, but you've just got to leave and not come back. Ever.
• These people from the other village smell wrong! Kill them!
• From the brightness before Him passed His thick clouds
• Having gotten myself into a position where I can have my cake and eat it too, I feel a strong compulsion to get up from the table
• i am looking for Morpheus. have you seen him?
• I mean these words come out of him like the right music
• I should have kissed him, of course.
• Why have you shot him for pounding a corn hat?
• They will love him long after he is gone.
• Gods exist but will only talk to those who stay awake after bedtime under the covers.
• When the suicide arrived at the sky, the people there asked him: "Why?"
• I didn't want him
• Then I poked him in his sunburn
• a constant, low wind trembles through him, catching his words and sending them out into the world
• Just give him the damned fish
• You want that I should rough him up?
• Things you can tell just by looking at him
• the hope of a skinny kid with a funny name who believes that America has a place for him, too
• The Mojave Desert spit him out, and the Pacific Ocean swallowed him, half-chewed
• I wanted to touch him so badly that it made my fingertips burn
• I didn't love him until I feared I would lose him. One does not love breathing.
• If there is a God, I want him on Speed Dial.
• I wrote you a letter on the bus back from the city, but that's a different kind of weary
• He was confirming to himself that they were laughing with him after all
• I killed him today, he who does not exist
• Better him than me
• I met him two days ago and now he wants to fly me to Peru
• spin until you get dizzy, then spin the other way to cancel it out
• Walking out of other people's prisons
• you want me here? well, then ask me to stay.
• He said I'm better off without you, 'til I showed him my tattoo
• better off with him than here with me
• She could not live with or without him
• Better than kicking him into next week
• The broken magnets in their heads all point to him
• Having gotten myself into a position where I can have my cake and eat it too, I feel no compulsion to get up from the table
• Little lights that don't blink off but fade out instead
• When people ask "Where are you from?" I have to think for a minute
• I've had better hugs from wind gusts and dead people
• She really does want to clap along, but at the same time she doesn't want to let the bird get out.
• Usually, if you've seen one bald man in a robe, you've seen 'em all, but most of them aren't burning alive from the inside out
• Starving in the greenhouse
• How dating pretty boys helped me come out
• Death arrived shortly thereafter, but we were both far too busy to bother with one another just yet
• Burning textbooks and then selling them back
• I know there are other fish in the sea but I don't want them
• You've Always Had a Hidden Agenda, but people were busy with other things
• Looking back from time to time, her tears falling fast
• Not too far back in time
• Ads from the back page of the Village Voice
• I Just Want To See The Boy Happy
• I'd ask, sure, I'd ask. But then, then you could say no.
• They were looking for God but found religion instead
• Yet is there hope, then Love but play thy part
• Help wanted. No previous experience necessary. Martyrdom not required but highly suggested.
• I ought to be grateful, but instead I'm angry
• there are people who are gone but wanted me to be happy
• bitterly but gracefully finding the strength to let go of your failed relationships and move on with your emotionally damaged life
• Every strong wind one leans into and smiles should bring back a lost toy from childhood
• My soul is in a million pieces. I tried to collect most of them, but some are missing, and the ones I have don't fit together anymore. Feel free to take a piece or two.
• People tell us who they are, but we ignore it, because we want them to be who we want them to be.
• I have a most elegant proof of that, but this node is too small to contain it
• I never wanted to burn any bridges. But I did want to light some fires.
• I don't know why but I always love episodes without words. like just something about them makes me feel calm or something..
• You couldn't save me back then. I will save you now. Trust me, take my hand.
• fighting back
• I got your back but you're best to watch your front
• It's hard to go back to reality after 10 hours of coding
• You Better Watch Out, or the Insects Will Get You
• Your angel stayed long after everything else was gone
• I'm not religious, but I think I have a close relationship with God
• The Firestone dealership was full to the brim with cars. But I reasoned I would need a boat, since my desire was to go to Ireland. Just then a harsh reminder surfaced; water is expensive in hell.
• Textbooks you save because there's that one chapter in back you refer to every two years or so
• The most disturbing thing that I have ever seen on the back of a truck
• After a six-month diet of blues and greys I was back to white. I was an empty plate.
• Not too sentimental, but I want you to know
• It wasn't so much what you said, or what I did, but more what you said I did, and what I didn't say at all.
• I learned never to empty the well of my writing, but always to stop when there was still something there in the deep part of the well, and let it refill at night from the springs that fed it.
• You want to reassure her, but you don't know where to start
• It's too bad she won't live. But then again, who does?
• Can I play with your breasts? Yes, but don't get out of the yard.
• She didn't write like Emily Dickinson, but she did live in a house overlooking a cemetery, and I guess he thought that was important.
• Oh, did you learn to play chess after YOU dropped a barbell on your head, too?
• There's a sign on the wall. But she wants to be sure. Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
• we have the most gigabytes of infodata but we still shoot each other on the streets
• They call you heartless, but you have a heart, and I love you for being ashamed to show it. You are ashamed of your flood, while others are ashamed of their ebb.
• But I'm a good person! Yeah great you wanna help me with this or what?
• Your radical ideas about many things have already occurred to others but have never been articulated in a fashion so accessible to current generations
• it won't kill you to breathe it in, but it may change you, years from now
• i wish i felt like teaching today, but i just want to be selfish
• Perhaps pain will stop me where good sense and virtue have failed
• The drunker I am, the better I am at pool. Or is that the other way around?
• fight back
• The boys did not know it. They were just being beautiful, and I got to watch.
• worse things have happened to better people
• this way, that way, the other way, and back
• before the internet when teen had REAL relationship the boy could look at the girl and judge the diameter of her thorax with his feelers and determine whether the mating ritual could commence but NO MORE. evil woman use her computer sorcery
• How Eulenspiegel, along with the other boys, was made to eat too much bread
• How to develop one side of your butt and still have the other one flabby
• I'm sorry I was speeding, officer, but I really have to get to the hospital
• A little Clint Black never killed anybody, but it did evacuate the building.
• I'm not a dyke just 'cause I shaved my head, but if it keeps certain people away, fuckin' A right on
• I always knew I would have a 21st birthday but I never thought I'd be 21
• Drop the hamster and back away from the canary
• But I have seen the sun just once
• This one goes out to you - not so much the people in the audience, but more the people in my mind
• If you could go back in time and kill Hitler, would you?
• Jessica, too tall but still lovely, was not sure she would or should drop the whale

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