The list of what remains unfinished

• collect those scattered bits of paper with addresses, phone numbers, appointments, recipes, job opportunities, shit-you-don't-need for sale, and get them organized
• clean. Clean the toilet, wash your sheets, and the laundry - there's an endless task. How many times can you wear a shirt before it HAS to be washed? Vacuum, dust, Oh shit, the sink is full of dirty dishes... again. And clean yourself; shower, brush your teeth (twice daily), floss, shave, trim your nails. Wash the car too, and the yard, and wash the dog, scrub down the neighbors (don't forget behind the ears), and then back to the toilet. Wash, rinse, repeat.
• Keep in touch with relatives and old friends and strangers that could get you somewhere some day, contacts; it's called networking. Send Christmas cards and mass mails and letters (to the really special ones - no, I just don't send letters... but I should; keep it on the list). Your Grandma was asking about you the other day. Send out all the RSVPs and thank-you cards and the thanks-for-the-thank-you-card-cards and get well soon, Congratulations on your new job, new baby, congratulations on getting well soon. Happy birthday, happy anniversary, welcome to the family, our condolences, and just because. Just because? What a scam! Who needs a card Just Because?
  Well nobody needs one, but your grandma would really like to hear from you.
• finish the list....

Get my car fixed. Buy some real groceries; eat.
Take a shower. Draw more. Take more photos. Buy film. Start with fixing my holga.
Stop. Stand still; remember why I'm here. Close my eyes. Talk to people.
Stop, stop again, stop being so damn close minded.
Wear my glasses like I should. Restring my guitar. Buy a new old cd. Invite my friends out to dinner instead of going alone. In fact, stop being alone so often.
Trust people.
Kiss the girl.
Smile. Get new socks. Throw away all the spoiled food in the fridge. Sing like I used to.
Seriously, talk to people. Spend more time with the kids. Contact old friends; keep in touch.
Get better at communicating. Admit that yes, I do have self-confidence, but only when no one else is watching. Seriously, sleep.
Buy a new shirt. Get batteries for things. Listen.

Change.