Drove into Manhattan today to pick up my son--in the city, it's not too hard to imagine what wonderful critters we are. Pretty people wander about pretty buildings under a pretty May sky.

Bricks and concrete. Pretty bricks and concrete.

pretty:
O.E. pręttig (W.Saxon), *prettig (Mercian) "cunning, skillful, artful," from prętt, *prett "a trick, wile, craft," from W.Gmc. *pratt- (cf. O.N. prettr "a trick," prettugr "tricky;"....Connection between O.E. and M.E. words is uncertain, but if they are the same, meaning had shifted by c.1400 to "manly, gallant," and later moved via "attractive, skillfully made," to "fine," to "beautiful in a slight way" (1440).

Etymology Dictionary Online

I spent part of the morning dodging a carpenter bee. Carpenter bees look like bumbles on steroids, and have an odd habit of bumping into folks who ramble into their territory. After getting bumped a few times, they usually leave me alone. I have yet to be stung by one, though I have been stung frequently by its cousins.

This particular bumble had claimed the same post I wanted to use to run a line for an errant hops vine. The post is made of treated lumber, and the bee kept trying different parts of the post, perhaps hoping to find a portion tasty enough to drill. It was cranky.

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My daughter and I spent an hour or so sitting by our puddle, listening to baseball, drinking ale, and occasionally tossing in a pellet or two for the fish. I had cleaned the filter earlier, and I still had some muck in the bucket by the pond.

A fish kissed a bug off the pond's surface.

The game ended badly. I wandered inside to grab the microscope. It is a sturdy scope that I abuse, but it works better bounced around outside, dirtied by my muddy hands, than it does sitting pretty on a shelf indoors.

I do not know what I was looking for, but I am used to that. A copepod, apparently fine despite having spent part of its life sucked into the pond filter, squiggled by under the coverslip, munching away at critters to small to be seen at 40X.

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My offline scritchpad died--I had a node called "radiolarian ooze" almost ready to go. Radiolarians look like tiny glass geodesic balls. Their exoskeletons are made of opal--they live mostly inside their opal palaces, but when they get hungry, they extend a long sticky arm outside their crytal ball, and grab whatever it is that radiolarians eat.

When radiolarians die, they sink. There are portions of the Pacific sea floor thick with radiolarian ooze--miles thick. The lower levels eventually get compressed into rock called chert.

I wanted to buy some radiolarian ooze. I found a science store that would sell me a prepared slide, but I wanted the ooze. I never liked prepared slides--don't trust them. Too pretty.

I am still looking for radiolarian ooze.

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I got all excited last year after discovering ostracods, but I still got pretty darn excited by my copepod.

Another bug got itself stuck on the pond's surface. My daughter and I watched for a minute, waiting for a fish to grab it. The fish were full.

I retrieved the bug.

I went back to my microscope. The copepod still squiggled about.

So I dumped the rest of the filter ooze back into the pond. My pond isn't pretty, but that's OK.

We all need more ooze in our lives.

Mac died this morning, finally succumbing to Lou Gehrig's Disease after years of disbelieving what was happening to him. I remember when the first symptoms of the disease surfaced, as he was baffled and frustrated by the fact that he no longer had the strength to raise his arms over his shoulders. It was a long and painful road down, and I wish that I could say that it was noble or inspiring. Instead, it was just a descent into hell as we saw his personality caving inwards and the fear of death become a palpable presence in his hermetically sealed house

Mac was my father-in-law. Known as Dutch by his oldest friends, from a time after the war when Germans were still being demonized by those whose memories of concentration camps and other horrors were still fresh. He was born in a small thousand year old hamlet that nestles amidst towering trellises covered with hops twenty kilometers outside of Nuremberg. The son of the village policeman, he had a typically peaceful and sleepy upbringing until the war brought all that crashing down. His older brother died in Hitler's incomprehensible attack on the Russian Front and he himself was drafted at the age of sixteen at the tail end of the war. He was cleanup crew, following a slow moving train picking up materiel and personnel through France on the way back to the fatherland. Wounded in a mortar attack, he had to fend for himself as there were no medics to minister to those that were still walking. He ended up having to walk the last thirty or forty kilometers home as the rail system had completely broken down under the pressure of the allied onslaught. He arrived at his home, knocked on the door and his mother tried to turn him away as she did not recognize the man under the blood as the boy that had left her house. Later he was the one the town sent out to see whose tanks were advancing over the valley below and wept with joy that it was the Americans and not the Russians, as the Russians were raping their way through Eastern Europe and Germany. The war would become a lifelong obsession and his most intense intellectual pursuit.

Shortly after the war, he hopped on a motorcycle and left home for a tour of what must have been a bleak war ravaged Europe. Little details are know about that time as he seldom talked about it, but he made it as far as Spain and then went back and applied for a scholarship to continue his interrupted studies in the US. He went to Duke University where he met my wife's mother and shortly after they were married. He was a handsome devil as pictures of him in full James Dean getup, sitting on the bumper of some late forties Chrysler show.

The day after he became an american citizen he was drafted into the Korean War and became a tank driver. He was probably the only person ever to actually gain weight on military chow and the rigid hierarchy of the military suited him to a T. His good looks once more came into play and he was selected as a model to show the brass all around Asia Pacific the new uniforms the Army was switching to. Once he completed his tour of duty, he came back stateside and pronounced to his wife that he had decided to make the military his career and was given a simple choice, my mother in law, or the military. Instead of the army, he worked for Con Edison in Manhattan, rising slowly from digging up the streets to managing all the gas meters in the city when he retired at the early age of fifty-five. That he chose to stay with my mother in law, and give up what would have been his best true calling, speaks volumes of the love he had for her.

They had their difficulties over the years and were perhaps not ultimately very well suited for each other. His knee jerk Republican conservatism, partially abandoned in his later years, clashed with his wife's deeply ingrained liberalism, reaching a crescendo during the Viet Nam War. Nonetheless, they raised two daughters and managed to have a lot of happy times in their quintessential suburban house on Long Island. The rest of the story is not that pretty. My mother in law died after two prolonged bouts with cancer and a few years later, his eldest daughter had to choose the day that she was ready to die from a long struggle with Cystic Fibrosis. I don't think he ever recovered from those blows. He lived out the rest of his life in one of those nondescript communities in Florida, descending ever more into his idiosyncrasies but traveling back and forth to his family in Germany and happy in a way that only stasis can bring.

He was a man that never really let you glimpse his inner psyche, perhaps partly due to his Teutonic upbringing and part as a survival buffer from the horrors he had witnessed. I wish I had know him better, I wish he had let any of us in.

Racing is dangerous.

Of course that ought to seem obvious. Cars are run at the absolute limits of adhesion, pushed far past the point of good sense. Former Formula 1 World Champion Phil Hill once noted that in order to win you must at time take grave risks.

But when we think of risks we always think of the drivers. Consider this, I have seen personally seen following men drive: Bruce McLaren, Mark Donohue, Peter Revson, Jerry Titus, Francois Cevert, Swede Savage and Greg Moore. I've held out flags for Moore. They all died racing.

But the truth is that racing isn't truly safe for anyone. I'm a corner worker, and we too play on the other side of the spectator fence. We have a barrier to hide behind, legs to run, eyes to see, and a blue flagger to protect us when our back is turned. But none of us has a roll cage, a five-point harness or a fuel cell. We stand out there naked with our flags and fire extinguishers. Things can go bad quickly at 130 MPH.

Today my friend Glenn Miller was killed in a racing accident at Nelson Ledges Road Course. Glenn was an engineer and a teacher, a lean, high-strung man with a quick laugh and beer in his hand around the campfire. He drove in road rally competition. He was a damned good corner worker, and damned serious about what happened out there where race cars dance. In 2004 he suffered a stroke, and spent the season chomping at the bit to get back out on a corner station. He loved pool, racing and his family in indeterminate order.

Glenn called me a friend. He served as crew for me, and when I was sitting in the trailer dejected after stuffing my car into a tree at Summit Point he was the one who came to cheer me up, to get me going again.

Glenn was married with three children. They were all raised at the track and they're all corner workers. Mindy just got her engineering degree, Candy's still in college and Doug's earned an academic scholarship to college. There good kids, happy and smart, at least until now. I never met his wife, and I wish that when we do meet it could come under happier circumstances.

I don't yet know the details of Glenn's death, but they really don't matter. Shit happens in racing, and sometimes shit happens to you. I do know that my friend died doing something he loved.

Every fall at Nelson Ledges the men and women of Lake Erie Communications remember those corner workers who have passed on. They work Station 1, there spirits out there to enjoy the racing and to remind the rest of us what we have to live up to. We blow their whistles and remember them. Until now none have died on track.

I think Glenn's whistle will prove hard to blow.