http://everything2.com/?node=New%20Writeups%20Atom%20Feed&foruser=memmorex 2012-06-21T08:35:10Z http://everything2.com/user/memmorex/writeups/Morning+Starmemmorexhttp://everything2.com/user/memmorex2012-06-21T08:35:10Z2012-06-21T08:35:10Z <p>--<a href="/title/I+am+the+Alpha+and+The+Omega">Alpha</a>--</p> <p> Never thought that life was fair in any way. But also I've never been angry about it because I knew nothing could be changed. It was just the way it was supposed to be. Many times I thought I could actually change who I was and the way my life was going. But no <a href="/title/opportunity">opportunity</a> has appeared. Well...It's wrong to say that there was no opportunity. But my confidence was way too low. I knew the pain of not trying was harder than the pain of failing. I knew that I was good enough to actually succeed in some way if I had the will. Always been an <a href="/title/underachiever">underachiever</a>. Mostly because I realized that I would get by whether I worked hard or not. I’ve been waiting for that "next time". I was telling myself that maybe I needed somebody to guide me. And yet, I was aware that nothing is going to happen just like that.</p> <p> My <a href="/title/social+life">social life</a> is a quite poor one. Who I am kidding? It’s non-existent. I know people, but not well enough to actually hang around with them.&hellip;