jessicaj's New Writeupshttp://everything2.com/?node=New%20Writeups%20Atom%20Feed&foruser=jessicaj2022-06-14T00:31:25ZJune 13, 2022 (log)http://everything2.com/user/jessicaj/writeups/June+13%252C+2022jessicajhttp://everything2.com/user/jessicaj2022-06-14T00:31:25Z2022-06-14T00:31:25Z<p><a href="/title/So+there%2527s+this+guy">So there's this guy</a>, and the problem is he has the power to fire me. We get along pretty well for the most part, but that is largely because I keep my mouth shut, probably to an extent that most people don't realize since I have plenty to say. The company hired me because they felt that they had a need, and this is true, however, the way that things are being done now is incredibly inefficient, old school, and redundant, it is not an exaggeration to say that better systems and processes could save, and make us millions, but I am not going to be a very popular person if I waltz into someone's office, and expose our weak underbelly. Like a lot of life, I'm probably worrying needlessly, difficult conversations can be had, there are ways forward I am not exploring at the time because I'm so wrapped up in my own emotional states, this is why I write, to get things out, to give them a place to go, so I can mentally place them in a different compartment, and break the thought loops that consume me if I let<!-- close unclosed tag --></p>…June 12, 2022 (log)http://everything2.com/user/jessicaj/writeups/June+12%252C+2022jessicajhttp://everything2.com/user/jessicaj2022-06-12T22:00:20Z2022-06-12T22:00:20Z<p>The last time I was at the library, I picked up a book on raw foods, and even though it was somewhat of a disappointment, there was still a lot of value in it for me, and I'm really glad I went ahead with that decision. This book is slightly different than ones I have read in the past, the raw food book I own has much better photos, but this woman's book has better content, and one of my favorite things is that she designed her recipes to serve a single person with the option of doubling them for two. Most of what it said was not really new to me, but I needed an incentive to get back into it, and it did achieve that. For anyone who wishes to check it out for themselves, the book is: <a href="/title/raw+food+Made+Easy+for+1+or+two+people">raw food Made Easy for 1 or two people</a> (capitalization as it appears on the cover, and spine) by jennifer cornbleet. One thing that really bothered me is her tendency to put photos in seemingly random spots, I did not enjoy seeing a photo, and then having to hunt for the accompanying recipe, however I did appreciate her<!-- close unclosed tag --></p>…June 11, 2022 (log)http://everything2.com/user/jessicaj/writeups/June+11%252C+2022jessicajhttp://everything2.com/user/jessicaj2022-06-11T13:59:34Z2022-06-11T13:59:34Z<p>Years ago I listened to; '<a href="/title/The+Power+of+Habit">The Power of Habit</a>' as an audiobook. Sometimes I treat my library like the mall; I walk in, load up on things, and then take back whatever doesn't work for me. Since I was returning books, I thought I would wander around a little, and stumbled on this again. Remembering how much impact it had on my life the first time through, and now that I have a longer commute, audiobooks make sense again. A woman named Lisa is the first subject, and listening to her story helped me a great deal. I too have a past, one I am not particularly proud of, there were a couple things in her life that parallelled mine, and hearing how she was able to turn her life around gave me some much needed hope, and encouragement. These things are all fine, well, and even good, but without accompanying action, they are ineffective. Lisa started running, at first she was slow, and couldn't go very far, she was in Egypt, trying to light a pen instead of a cigarette, and decided that she needed to make a change<!-- close unclosed tag --></p>…June 7, 2022 (log)http://everything2.com/user/jessicaj/writeups/June+7%252C+2022jessicajhttp://everything2.com/user/jessicaj2022-06-08T00:42:40Z2022-06-08T00:42:40Z<p>Today was great; a lot of things happened that I wasn't particularly pleased with, however, considering where I came from, where I have been, and what I have tolerated in the past, today was like riding to work on the back of a pure white swan (even though I have been informed that they are not terribly nice creatures, the imagery works for me). My new job is going really well; last week we spent quite a bit of time redoing things in my manager's office. His old desk was one of the sturdy metal varieties with a faux wood laminate top, one of the legs was separating from the rest of the structure, it was quite heavy, and I'm glad my main role was taping the drawers closed so others could more easily maneuver it through the door. I was telling a friend that there were some tense moments, when both of us were frustrated with the other person, but, I think, also able to see the other person's point of view.</p>
<p>Monday morning was cold, wet, and rainy. I drove to work in tears, angry and upset with myself<!-- close unclosed tag --></p>…June 6, 2021 (log)http://everything2.com/user/jessicaj/writeups/June+6%252C+2021jessicajhttp://everything2.com/user/jessicaj2021-07-06T11:23:57Z2021-07-06T11:23:57Z<p>I used to write quite a bit, then I took a break, I tried writing in a notebook, and there were a lot of benefits to that, but it is no longer working for me, so I decided to try going back to something that has worked for me in the past. I left the job I have now, and I'm glad that I did. I came back, and I'm glad I was open to that as well. We have several new people at work, apart from myself, there's only one other non-management employee who has been there since 2020, turnover has been a huge problem, but I'm learning to be a fan of examining what is working rather than focusing on what isn't going well at any given moment. My youngest has a birthday this month, and I want to reach out to the people at work, and ask for some help. I've done this in the past, and most have said that they would, but it doesn't end up actually happening, and that's been frustrating. Part of it is I feel timid about asking. They are busy people, they have lives outside of work, and I know the last thing I want to do when<!-- close unclosed tag --></p>…It was a reasonable chat, I let him have it alone (person)http://everything2.com/user/jessicaj/writeups/It+was+a+reasonable+chat%252C+I+let+him+have+it+alonejessicajhttp://everything2.com/user/jessicaj2020-11-15T19:35:07Z2020-11-15T19:35:07Z<ol>
<li>Periodically I let my friends talk me <a href="/title/The+venom+of+my+hate+will+live+beyond+the+span+of+this+universe+to+infect+the+next">into things</a>;</li>
<li>which is how I ended up going out on <a href="/title/Mystery+date">a date</a>.</li>
<li>There are rules of engagement, he doesn't have</li>
<li>to know that I've got enough <a href="/title/silk+flowers">silk flowers</a> to leave</li>
<li><a href="/title/From+five+to+death+and+back">at fifty funerals</a>.</li>
<li>When I suggested we explore a local antique store</li>
<li>I figured he didn't need to hear that I never eat,</li>
<li>or drink anything when I'm out with a stranger.</li>
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<p> </p>
<ol>
<li><a href="/title/How+to+scare+off+men+in+a+personal+ad">I don't have anything against right handed men</a>,</li>
<li>it just doesn't work in my experience, and I offer</li>
<li>the following afternoon as proof. First of all, he</li>
<li>wanted to drive, and I didn't like getting into his</li>
<li>red Mustang because a guy who can't open a </li>
<li>door for me is automatically disqualified, and</li>
<li>ineligible to share any<!-- close unclosed tag --></li><!-- close unclosed tag --></ol>…