Everything2
Near Matches
Ignore Exact
Full Text
Everything2

on the outside looking in

created by RainMirage

(place) by RainMirage (2.8 y) (print)   ?   (I like it!) Sat Aug 04 2001 at 5:51:58

Used to describe any situation which an observer feels themselves outside of, either physically or mentally. Usually a person in the same social group who feels left out, but can include the casual observer. This expression is reaching a new meaning -- for me at least -- with the phenomena of the webcam.

When Ryan introduced his webcam, it just showed him. All of the background was, to me, unrecognizable and blurry. I would watch him sometimes at his computer, but just him. It felt weird, knowing how far away we are and that he was not similarly aware of me.

Now I have been there. I know the room in which the webcam dwells. I spent hours at his computer during my visit. I remember opening and closing the window blinds by his chair. I remember the clutter. I remember the childish wallpaper border. But most of all, I remember the people.

He tilted his webcam so it would show the whole room. I can see Lillis and Tabor at their computers, and in the next frame Lillis in Tabor's lap. Now they have friends over. There's Carlson, laughing. Maybe he's telling one of his stories. There's Bedrick, who was so nice to me when I was there, trying to include me in the conversation. Entrancing people that I came to love because I can love so easily sometimes.

Other people I recognize, but am unsure of their names. They walk around the room, sometimes gathering around a computer screen, sometimes around a person. Sometimes they all seem to be sitting there, doing their own separate things. Expressions range from serious and interested to vastly amused. Some people leave, and others enter. Frame by frame I view a world.

I am so far away, but I am looking through a window like Harriet the Spy. I am watching television with the sound turned off. The world I see is a world I wanted to be a part of, a world I touched, however briefly. But it is a world apart, and I am on the outside looking in.


printable version
chaos

Let me count all the pieces From the inside looking out Professional mourners Inside looking out
digitization Harriet the Spy
Y'know, if you log in, you can write something here, or contact authors directly on the site. Create a New User if you don't already have an account.
  Epicenter
Login
Password

password reminder
register

Everything2 Help

Cool Staff Picks
Nodes your cousin would have liked:
Antietam
Cambrian Explosion
The Devil Went Down to Georgia
Bill Finger
A Mighty Wind
house centipede
The Beat of the Music
Arecibo Observatory
MRI
Paul Simon
When I think of him now I can smell horses
Japan
Fountain pen
New Writeups
SwimmingMonkey
Conversations with Fo Fo- the Loneliest dog in Purgatory(fiction)
locke baron
lynx(thing)
Simulacron3
Reality, Dimensions and the Natural Ontology(essay)
SubSane
Making Love to a 9-Foot Woman(person)
Ouzo
Thoughts(idea)
antigravpussy
I fall silent, listening. The breadcrumbs are talking about us(person)
calgon
Buffalo Bill by the pool(poetry)
gate
Anarchy is Order(idea)
ushdfgakjasgh
Scribeling(thing)
XWiz
Trism(review)
artman2003
Briefcase Full of Souls - Part I(fiction)
Dreamvirus
Alan Ladd(person)
waverider37
Harold Holt(person)
The Debutante
Until death do us part(fiction)
Ysardo
a brother to a sister(personal)
Everything 2 is brought to you by the letter C and The Everything Development Company