Should I feel guilty?

created by prole

(idea) by prole (1.2 wk) (print) ? (I like it!) 1 C! Mon Jun 05 2000 at 1:52:34

because i don't want to be tori amos and proclaim myself a goddess while calling myself a slut? because i won't be a pious and pure martyr to eternally deferred gratification? i don't want a white wedding.

i'm not that kind of girl.

i want experience, because it lends power and purpose to my philosophizing. i want to know what i can have and do and not accept the assertions of sadder but wiser types who warn about mistakes that change you forever. i am proud that i can approach things in an emotional realm with a perspective owing much to the scientific method and draw my conclusions from my experiments and not from popular mythology and the memes of a conflicted society.

please forgive me if i fail to blush girlishly or my kiss surprises you and i prove your judgment of me wrong. understand that your concept of me, if you decide to chastise me, becomes superfluous. understand that i've heard it all before and your misconceptions are no longer novel.

but if you can appreciate the need to know and the hunger for things done without inhibition in the name of enlightenment, you've won my respect. because i don't want to be alone with a scarlet letter on my chest, but i won't stop living my life out of fear. the people who can meet me there and laugh about it, who don't shake their fingers at one another, make it so much less scary. we can all be unashamed together.

I'm not that kinda girl	slut lessons	Girls who want to fuck, just to fuck	The Scarlet Letter
Removed from humanity, I realized I was just another distraction	White Wedding	prole	Slut
A nihilist's soulmate	Moral Ambiguity in The Scarlet Letter	Starbucks	Inhibition
misconception	Making someone feel loved	Don't make me angry, you wouldn't like me when I'm angry	Someone call the waaaambulance
Sea Monkey	Meme	experience	Sure, as soon as you get me back on an orbital platform
She walked by his desk and left a nickel	Devious	Suicide is a permanent solution to a permanent problem	I'm rubber, you're glue

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