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September 10, 2005

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(thing) by size_of_a_p'nut (4.2 wk) (print)   ?   (I like it!) Sat Sep 10 2005 at 6:35:58

Last night I got back from a funeral in Melbourne for one of my closest friends who died earlier this week on Monday night. She killed herself in a bathtub using a sharpened knife from the kitchen.

She was buried in a cemetary on the outskirts of Melbourne after a short service in a local church.

I was called on my mobile phone on Tuesday morning by her cousin who was the first person her mother called after discovering her body in the bathtub. Her mother saw that the bathroom light was still on in the early hours of the morning and went to investigate. She opened the door and screamed so loudly that her next door neighbour came over to check that everything was alright.

Before her neighbour even made it to her house she had called the ambulance, but by that time it was too late. Straight away after calling the ambulance service she rang the same nephew that called me, who lived only two blocks away. He sped all of the way to their house and ran straight in to find her mother sitting on the steps leading out of the back door of the house, crying her eyes out.

After receiving the phone call, I immediately made plans to travel to Melbourne the following morning. I boarded the 8am train. I arrived at the house of the nephew at about midday on Wednesday to one of the most grim sites that my eyes have ever seen. The girls mother was sitting at the kitchen table. She had obviously been crying all night and hadn't got much sleep.

The service was Friday morning. There weren't many people there. All that were there were very close to the family and there was not a dry eye in the church.

The burial followed. After the eulogy I threw a single rose into the grave. That was her favourite flower.

I retuned to my home town last night and went straight to bed.

-This was written with tears running down my face. The actual events from Monday night to midday Wednesday were told to me by the girl's cousin who rang me on Tuesday.


(person) by Dimview (4.7 hr) (print)   ?   (I like it!) 1 C! Sat Sep 10 2005 at 14:04:20

This morning I cried a little for a noder I never knew. Who passed away four long years ago. I felt an echo of the suffering - his suffering, his friends' suffering, his family's...

That was then, and this is now.

His w/us are still here. His homenode. All the love. The helplessness. Makes it very, very real and now. Brings back fears of my own. Makes me remember nights and days of fuck you if you do it...

We made it through. My world is still intact. I count every day as a blessing.

I never knew him, but /me misses Hermetic


(idea) by Little Suspicious (2.3 mon) (print)   ?   (I like it!) Sat Sep 10 2005 at 17:27:46

Happiness

Mix:

In a bowl you can microwave. Microwave for one minute on 50% power and stir.

Eat with a spoon

Contemplate the goodness of Saturdays

Refrigerate excess.

Eat peanut-buttery-chocolate goodness later.


(thing) by aVheretic (1.8 d) (print)   ?   (I like it!) Sat Sep 10 2005 at 21:41:14

Trying to get my priorities right after reading joes3029's messages in my chatterbox after my last rant I decided that from this week on I would be a changed person. That I would focus more on the wheat and cut out the chaff.

I was drunk on no less that 3 occasions in the past week.
Of course the fact that I had my first round of class tests at the end of the week didnt help much. A post-graduation bash and a birthday party were just some of the reasons for some rather extended drinking sessions. The other days I drank just to get rid of the throbbing pain in the back of my head. By Thursday evening I was stretched to the point that I swore I would never touch alcohol again.

Not all was bad though.
I finally started reading again. John Milton, James Joyce, Edgar Allan Poe et al have found their way back into my bookshelf. Going through the pages I now wonder why I stopped reading in the first place ? Sober moments found me studying for the test and so I managed to scrape by with decent scores.

Well, guess what ?
Its Saturday night, and I am drunk again. This time the reason cited is the end of the tests. Seems to me that we are on a constant lookout for any petty reason to go drink ourselves to oblivion. It is times like these that doubts arise in my mind on the type of company I so lately tend to keep. I have always considered myself a great judge of human character. I couldnt have been more wrong.

Change is inevitable.
Slowly but surely I hope to get back on the track again. If this means making certain changes in my group / lifestyle so be it. I am ready to take the risks and face the trials and tribulations that now lie ahead of me. Rekindle the dying embers and revive once more the dreams of yesteryears. Seems now that the throbbing pain was really a warning signal....

It aint over till I say its over.

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