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JeffMagnus node count: 3824 (1 new since July 7, 2000)
JeffMagnus experience: 6944 (4 more since July 7, 2000)
JeffMagnus experience to node ratio: 1.816 XP per node
JeffMagnus nodeshare: 0.637%
JeffMagnus node of the day: Everything 2 Civil War

Random work today ... the Big Kahuna has not yet decided to fund the Goosefood Project. Nonetheless we stay confident. Today I chaired two, no, three meetings. In one of them I reduced expenses by about 10.000 bucks. In the second one I expressed hopes, and in the third one I managed three people, and thought about axing a fourth one.

Then I went to chat with some people that were late. I am still totally hosed from this weeks Deep Demo.

This machine appears to have no brackets, neither square nor angled, which accounts for the somewhat unfriendly formatting.

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Everything's Best Users Snapshot

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  21   pingouin              6900    22     5     9   6895    25
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Server time: 16:23 Sat Jul 8 2000 UTC, corrected since June 29, 2000

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l_ = last (previous) value; inc = increase in stats value
wa7 = ((stats + (6 * l_wa7))/7) = weighted average with denominator 7

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I splurged and bought me some Reebok's for my walks. They were wonderful last night on my walk even though I was soaking wet from the rain when I got home. A much needed catharsis that walk in the rain was. Turned down three rides to finsish it, came in took a hot bath and snuggled down under the warm blankets to watch Voyager before I drifted off to sleep.

I would like you to dance

(Birthday) Take a ch-ch-ch-chance

(Birthday) I would like you to dance

(Birthday) Dance....

Birthday
The Beatles (The White Album)

I love my birthdays!

Secret Heart

You desire truth in the inward being; therefore teach me wisdom in my secret heart
- Psalm 51:6 (NRSV)

Devotion

I could be with you and you wouldn't think twice about it. We could have so much fun together, deary. Drinking coffee while we play minature golf beneath the surreal, plastic giraffes...driving around aimlessly while smash mouth plays on the radio...going to the mall to see if any quirky, new stores have opened up...you, looking at me lovingly. Yes, this and more could be mine.

But it won't. I won't allow it to be.

That's right--I can't bring myself to let you into my life. I see no purpose for you. It feels so wrong of me to do this to you, to deny you myself, but it's just something I could never live with.

You're beautiful...I'm sure at least 12 people have already told you that as you walked out of your house and got in your car. You're funny...the goldfish you keep in your toilets know that. You're sweet...when you help old women cross the street and resist that oh-so-strong urge to toss them into oncoming traffic and run away to the local gas station while laughing like your hero Darth Vader. So...why not?

I'm such a jerk. I don't want to do this to you. But you're not giving me the feeling that you're what it's all about. It's so trivial, it's so mean...

And that's why I could never look at you without such an intense feeling of guilt. That's why I can't stop myself from crying as I write this. That's why I will never allow our relationship to progress to a point where I might actually have to give these evil words a voice.

It's my kindness to be so cruel to you.

Day 1 of Unemployment

1:30pm PST I wander up to Capitol Hill and check my PO Box. Bills. Lovely. With what do I pay these? Oh yeah... I made that plan a few mornings ago... I finally landed at Vivace and read more of Cryptonomicon.

3:15pm PST This being unemployed thing isn't half bad. I've spent the afternoon wandering about in the sun. Of course it's a Saturday and I could have been doing this any old Saturday... that I wasn't actually at work of course.

4pm PST At home I eat six rice cakes, half a jar of peanut butter and a lot of boysenberry jam. Yummmmmmmmmmm. Dinner. Time to node...

I accidentally witnessed the first steps of opening the Czech Connection, before I traversed the surroundings just to find that the past lives on well into the future. The blissful sentimentality turned to disgust as the day grew on me.

I learned that I have to disband the base and establish a new within three weeks from today. I have gathered the resources by now and have been waiting for this moment to arrive. Thus I am not worried.

My steady progress against depression slipped today - I caught myself crying and praying for cancer. How can I respect myself?

I can't remember the last time I touched another person. Maybe aethyr, more than a week ago.

I try so hard...