fall, fell fallen crashing
asleep dizzy (spinning?)
drunk and
daring (dying?)
stop count laugh smile walk
head-lowered-longing
i would walk to the center of your street and hold arms at sides, spin, and spin and watch the world take on nothingness, blurred shape vague form, stopped just then i kept.. going and, fell. hard. fast. slowly sprawled legs aching, tiny rocks pushed into tender skin. blood red gray covered faint scent.. sent? yes, i sent for you..
i kept my tears warm for you.. late again, you screamed, late again into my broken ear. i didn't hear you but i knew.
breathing awake, sleeping alive i am
only in dreams as you are only in life
i asked for your hands and you gave me arms
thank you.
slashing morose thought
he told me to stop
that i would never understand and so
i thought of grabbing loose clothing
holding on or.. leaving
i am.
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